Ever feel like you don't belong? This feeling is hard to describe...even though i may appear to be happy, laughing all the way, but do i really feel this way?

I dun noe...It has sort of become my habit to hide my feelings...some things are just so hard to say...The words just can't come out, even though it was thought through quite a few times...Why is it that some just can't look from a different angle?

Guess i tend to think too much...thinking too much not only does not solve the problem...it adds on to the prob...but will it help by saying out? I dun think so,at least not for me...saying out isn't just right...it will further complicate the prob...Can't speak my mind when they are ard, just can't relate to them...mayb cos i dun hv the habit to say certain things to them...feel more confortable saying to her...at least she understands wad i say...if only i'm sill staying there...it will be much better...more freedom as well...

Feel as if i'm restricted...everything have to tell them...that is not concern...certain issues u can't expect me to tell u de...if pple dun feel like say y keep on asking? There is no point in it! Disappointment is always wad u say abt me, but thinking back, hv i done things that u are happy abt? Think u hv long forgotten abt it rite? Always oppose to the things i do, everything hv to report...ARGHHHH

Shutting up is probably the best!

Its complicated...seem so near yet so far...