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Wednesday, October 20, 2010 23:52
Updates: Happy 2010-2010! Watched Eat, Pray, Love with Siti last week. Not bad i would say. Day was well spent. Was sick the next day. What a day. Went for cousin's wedding on sun noon. Vegetarian weddding lunch, to think i was looking forward to having 'normal' food. When i saw the tag on the table, there goes my mood~ Its a critical period now. Need to clear out my thoughts. Things which has been bothering me for some time. Things i wanna leave it at the back of my mind. Things which are simple yet complicated. Things i have no solutions to. Why do these thoughts crept out only in the middle of the nights where everywhere is darkness where everyone is asleep. Helpless but who can i call? Am i able to say out even if i managed to call? I don't know. Don't want to know. Things will get better. Endure for now. Hang in there! On the other hand, it was good to get things off, even though i don't mind listening, but there's a limit to things. Why do i even bother when all i said was fallen to deaf ears? I give up. Seriously give up. Like wad was told to me, i give up. Not becos i don't care is cos there is nth i say that will help or you will listen to. Its all your choice. If this is gonna cost our friendship, i got nth to say. Like i've said time will tell. If little things like these is the cause, i don't think its worth. Thankful for friends who are there, listening... It sounds a'lil weird, but i'm still thankful to have you there. Funny how I managed to tell you things. Maybe you've known an unknown part of me or rather you got me at the right time, that I just can't keep within any longer. The words you said helped. Its good to know that there IS someone who will be there regardless of the time. Even though I'm still having doubts, but you didn't qn further~something i appreciate. Thank you. I'm finding the courage to press 'delete' I must do it ONE day! In the meantime, wearing a mask seems like a routine, how did i even managed to go it? =x Sometimes I wonder what am i made of...or maybe i'm just cold. I was told that I'm the stable one, but who really knows? All the insecurities starts creeping in...fightening *sshhh* |
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