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Monday, April 30, 2012 21:04
Somehow it doesn't feel like a Monday today. Woke up feeling refreshed and waking up to the morning sun feels good. Who knows this doesn't last. Just minutes before I left the sky turned dark and dang it started raining when I was in the bus. Should have taken the next bus cos the driver drive much faster and I could have avoided the heavy rain. Oh well~
Another month end went by. There's still things I'm unsure of but wasn't that bad as compared to two months back. I'm more composed this time round? Managed to get the things done and be back early. Thought I'll see the kids when I'm back. End up no one is home. And so now I'm waiting for 9 to watch tv. Been quite awhile since I last sat waiting for time to pass. Thought I'll blog abit before the show start. Heard a song over the radio, like the lyrics of the song which reminds me of you. Don't ask me why. Its not as if I can control. It's better with people around and there's distraction. Occasional distraction is good. This month is gonna be a tight one. With so many deadlines and the amount of things coming in. Good luck to me :x Off for my drama time! *sshhh* |
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Sunday, April 29, 2012 08:26
懂了，了解了，时间过了 就应该会好了。刚过了一个忙碌的周六，起得早办了很多事，还挺充实的。和表姐一家到东海岸吃晚餐，一起分享食物更好吃。
After much consideration, I've decided to revert back. Back to the word that I feel its apt. It'll be the best for now. And I'm saying its gonna be the final word. Had meeting the other day and it left me thinking twice about what I'm doing. Seeing my name appear so many times on the screen isn't all that good. It's additional workload and I'm not sure if I could handle it or not. Witness some breakdown on that very day also. Don't know how I should react and I chose to quietly leave abt 8plus. Not that I'm unwilling to help, sometimes got to learn to manage your own pace and time. The next day was quite bad. Started off on the wrong track. So irritated when I saw that note. Lesson of the day was, just do it, as long as things get done, it doesn't matter how/who does it. No point being so precise and make a fuss over little things. Time could be much better spent on getting things done. Till then~ have a good week ahead!! *sshhh* |
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Sunday, April 22, 2012 22:09
Early day today. Returned the robe and collected the photo. Movie at vivo after that. Saw QF on the way there, such coincidence!
The movie was so-so, not really as nice. I still prefer Hello Stranger more. And its shopping time again, some therapy needed before the coming week. Still abit fearful, but I'll get by somehow. Jiayou!!
Till the next post...take care peeps!
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Saturday, April 21, 2012 23:57
Bad luck started since yesterday...Things not going smoothly. What a Friday, and I fell down too. What is happening? Rained quite heavily this morning, waited for quite long before there was cab. Fetched my colleague and finally reached office. Managed to clear some things before heading off to meet Nad @ Clementi.
Went nex, had early dinner at abt 5. Very full after e meal and its shopping time! Walked around, stopping by some shops to have a look. Had a long chat with her too. Shared our views on some things and I didn't realise that she has that thought too. To think I thought I was silly to thing of that. Its the fear of the unknown that gets us. The darkness, the uncertainties...made me think about life which led me to question the purpose and there I go, thoughts running wild...out of control... and now I can't sleep.
有种冲动， 无法解释的冲动， 很想很想， 但没勇气。觉得自己不够坚强，尤其当面对某些事时，不够果断。 有时觉得不公平但为了不伤和气，我选择沉默， 因为说出来未必可以解决问题。不知何时开始，已经有在慢慢留意着，但该是松手的时候了吧。回到最初。。。但谈何容易啊！
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Thursday, April 19, 2012 22:34
Been ages since I last changed my blogskin. Decided to do so since I'm back early today. Good thing the rain stopped when I was about to alight. Met up with XR at FHA before coming back. Took bus back together. At least the journey isn't that long with someone together with me. Before heading home, we went Changi point since it was still early. Walked around awhile, nothing much to shop also. My experience at FHA is...got to be a bit thick skin? Many people walking around with the tags, tried some food and my favourite is the korean anchovies wheat biscuit. Too bad they don't sell it, if not I'll buy back to office. Other than that, nothing much interesting. That said, my plans for the coming week is like blank? How is it possible, I have no idea. There are so many things I want yet still have no plans yet. Constraints... I know its a hard time for you and I'm sorry I can't be there, please be strong and get well soon. I can't bear to see you after your session next week, I'm not strong enough. Sorry for not being a good god-daughter. *sshhh* |
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Wednesday, April 18, 2012 22:57
Beginning to see the difference there. Shan't say anything cos I don't want to hurt her. Kinda obvious, but let's just wait and see. Everything's changed. Busy week, many going for FHA during the week. Like today, office was quite empty, occasionally I like the silence, but not always. Talking about FHA, I'll be going tomorrow. My first time there, can explore around. Probably going there after lunch. Its like a year ago since I last stepped into EXPO. On another note, went to watched Mirror Mirror with besties last week. Quite like the movie. Was able to leave on time today. Went to the dentist. Somehow I'm not as scared since the last visit. Contemplating if I should ask to go stayover since month end coming soon. I kind of know the answer & reaction I will get. What should I do? I can't please everyone. Yet I can't just walk out. Argh! Such simple things can become complicated. I guess the root of the problem is that I think too much at times. Such that little things can become complicated. Thinking of all the possibilities and stuff. Yet when I really need to get something done, I can't seem to find the solution. Why is that so? Hmm... Was clearing my things the other day and I came across my diary. Looked at the list of things that I went through over the past year, how much things have changed. Have the feelings changed? I can't explain fully now. Oh well~ In the meantime I'm looking forward to the coming weekend :D *sshhh* |
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Thursday, April 12, 2012 22:12
The day finally arrived! Woke up as usual, just that I'm heading to school instead of work. After all the hard work, the fruits of labour. That marks the end of my education for now. Seeing many happy faces at the ceremony. Reached school early and I saw an ex-colleague. She's on duty this morning. The sense of familiarity is there. Went back to find my ex-colleagues after the reception. I have to say, I miss them all. The laughters and stuff. Took photos with them, too bad auntie D wasn't there. Blend in so easily, hope to see them soon. Went to visit aunt after that. Good that she's better now. At least got appetite. Shall visit her again soon. Spend some time with the young ones. My niece was sleeping when I reached. After she woke up, she's eating. Her favourite line was " I want to eat something" I like talking to her. Sometimes I'm wondering what's inside that little mind of hers. Always so curious and she observes people. Fell asleep on the sofa and there she is, climbing on me to wake me up. Play with her awhile before going off. Had a long chat with Nad the other day. The sharing session was good, but at the same time it kind of brought back some things that should be forgotten. Perhaps its not time yet. She shared a quote with me which I find it quite true. If time is up, no matter what the person will still exit in your life. So the conclusion is such that time is the factor. All that aside, its finally FRIDAY tomorrow! Gonna be a quiet day tomorrow and the next week as some colleagues are on leave. I hope there aren't much phone calls. If not its kinda hard to concentrate on work. *sshhh* |
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Saturday, April 7, 2012 23:03
End of my 'honeymoon' period. Back to the 起早摸黑 days, where sleep is so precious. Shan't think of that for now. That aside, I saw beautiful sunrise last week, twice in fact. Its a pity I didn't manage to capture the image. The morning sun shining, standing at the balcony seeing the sunrise gives me hope. Into the 3rd month in this new environment. Slowly getting the hang of things but still unsure of some. I realised that there are still lots of things that I need to clear up. On top of that still got to cover duty. I quiet accept what's given and not pursue further. Its better to get things done than to argue over who's suppose to get it done. By right things should be completed before handover, but by left since its already handed over, all will assume the person taking over has to do it. So the point is, just do it. Take it as I'm learning more I guess? Doesn't seem so unfair if I think this way. Work aside, you know that feeling when you're home and there's someone waiting for you? Everyday I was greeted by the young ones, seeing them run to the door when I open the door. How happy am I. After a long day at work, seeing them makes me smile and the tiredness were forgotten. Finally spend some time with the young ones today. Brunch at JP before going for the appointment. It lasted longer than I thought. Many points were shared. It was drizzling outside when everything ended. Went back and continue with watching videos on my phone. Watched till I fell asleep. By the time I woke up, its getting late. Had a quick shower and went for dinner at Alexander road. A cooling evening out. Shrimp paste chicken, stingray and few other dishes for dinner. The place we went to only plays hokkien songs. And the funny thing is, my nephew can sing the songs! Yummy dinner. Been a while since I last had such heavy dinner. Enjoyed it. About time to sleep since tomorrow will be an early day for me, but shucks man, I feel like singing k now =x Ps: There's no issue. Don't think too much aye. Enjoy yourselves for the upcoming trip! *sshhh* |
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Friday, April 6, 2012 14:21
Simplicity is bliss. If only everything is as simple as it is. Taking a new bus route to my destination, looking at the surroundings...places I've yet to go to. Something fresh, looking out of the window on the upper deck, many things come to my mind. Adding on to that my mp3 has to play Westlife songs on the track. There is this sudden urge...a feeling I can't describe. It's something the reality wouldn't allow.
该收拾心情往前走了, 就让我任性一次吧。。。 *sshhh* |
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Thursday, April 5, 2012 23:12
其实很在乎，却又装着不在乎...好矛盾啊！
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Sunday, April 1, 2012 03:25
Survived the so called month end. Good thing it falls on a Friday. Was barely there after I complete the things. And the tough part is yet to come. Keeping my fingers crossed for now. I hope things will be better this month.
The other day when I saw aunt being pushed out of the op theatre, felt so helpless there. Suddenly she's like so frail, not knowing what's happening with her surroundings and stuff. To be honest, I was a little upset when they asked if I mind. Since already have plans in mind, what else can I say besides that? Disappointed is the word. Other than that, this week is a drag. Things going out of hand and some sarcastic people I came across, I'm glad I took it rather well. Little things that makes my day are just things I'm looking forward to. Little gestures. It's the intangibles. The thoughts that counts. April is gonna be a short month. Time to buck up!! Jiayou!! *sshhh* |
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